People get into a heavy-duty sin and guilt trip, feeling that if things are going wrong, that means that they did something bad and they are being punished. That's not the idea at all. The idea of karma is that you continually get the teachings that you need to open your heart. To the degree that you didn't understand in the past how to stop protecting your soft spot, how to stop armoring your heart, you're given this gift of teachings in the form of your life, to give you everything you need to open further.
It's also helpful to realize that this very body that we have, that's sitting right here right now... with its aches and it pleasures... is exactly what we need to be fully human, fully awake, fully alive.
These jems of wisdom came at the perfect moment. As they say, when the student is ready the teacher appears. Well, I have been feeling guilty about a lot of things lately and these comments by the dear Pema Chodron have helped me realize that our faults help us grow and to not "beat myself up" over them as that just creates more negative karma.
We are spending the weekend up in the mountains at a friends cabin and only came down to get a few more things. It is so quiet, peaceful and beautiful up there. Hopefully should have some pictures to share.
-Peace to you all-