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Saturday, June 26, 2010

The Cure.

Just like a fever breaks, last night I felt a deep and rejuvenating release from the rising waters that had crested yesterday with my, "discouraged" post. It isn't the "cure" of liberation from the cycle of suffering and rebirth but rather a break in the fever that is discouragement. Writing out my emotions has long helped me process the disorienting thoughts that ensnares all of our minds. It is a form of honesty, which is a trait that I've been blessed and cursed with. Blessed in the sense that it helps me dissect confusing emotions with direct and exacting examination but cursed only in the sense that such honesty means facing sometimes painful and uncomfortable realities. Yet, despite the discomfort it seems to be one of the most direct and effective ways of dealing with obstacles and discouragement.

This release was initiated with my honest writings yesterday, and the sympathetic comments helped me let go of my guilt that somehow I was "failing" as a Buddhist. Intuitively I knew this deep within the recesses of my mind but hearing it from outside yourself always seems to help convince you that what you suspected is in fact reality, and not just your mind tricking you yet again with another delusion.

So, last night lying in bed I had the most unconventional yet therapuetic meditation. Lying in bed I embraced the exhaustion of the day and just enjoyed the feeling of my tired body being cradled by our cloud-like bed. The soft, soothing, rhythmic breathing of my wife cuddled against me brought me a deep sense of calm. Being fully present in the moment I was aware of my own chest rising and falling with deep, natural breaths. Absorbing the feeling as the boundaries and limits between my body and my immediate surroundings blended into the music of the band, "The Cure." Thus, the title of the post.

Feeling limitless yet grounded at the same time--like the sky stretching from horizon to horizon, free to flow yet held from disappearing into outer space by the grounding power of gravity. As I floated about in this state of pure awareness I soon drifted off in a deep restful sleep. Today I awoke feeling like a huge weight was lifted from my mind. A new day has dawned and yet I am thankful for the reminder lesson I was given in my months of struggle. As they say, "It's always darkness before the dawn" and yesterday was that darkest water mark before it crested and ebbed to make way for pure, stabilizing balance that comes from a deep grounding of oneness.

~Peace to all beings~

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16 comments:

Jayarava said...

Glad you found a way through it!

mindyourmind said...

You walked through the fire, like we all have to do. Like Buddhism in the West needs to do. It is when the Dharma helps in a situation like you are experiencing that it becomes universal, "Western", acceptable - not some esoteric, cute and cool Eastern game.

Well done, and thank you for taking these steps with us.

孫陽泉 said...

河水永遠是相同的,可是每一剎那又都是新的。......................................................................

陳隆 said...

死亡是悲哀的,但活得不快樂更悲哀。......................................................................

the beezer said...

Your writing is so honest and I am so thankful for that! I feel that I am in the middle of a little struggle currently and your writing often speaks to what I need to hear. Thank you for that as well!

zeke said...

You know in kabbalah (and ignore your first associations) there is a concept of "yeridah l'tsorech aliyah" - going down in order to go up. Basically it means that sometimes you must descend into the real shit in order to go higher than you were before.
I don't know how it helps anybody saying it...but it's been said.

I must say you've given me inspiration. I bless you that you should continue on your way and merit to inspire many people.

Bonsai Doug said...

There is a great article by Ezra Bayda in the current issue of the "Shambhala Sun" talking about just this thing - that our difficulties are not obstacles to be avoided in our path, but rather they are our path.

We need to see life's difficulties as our teacher. To understand that this is exactly what we need to work with in order to be free.

asdas said...

欣賞是一種美德~回應是最大的支持^^....................................................................

貢慧 said...

生存乃是不斷地在內心與靈魂交戰;寫作是坐著審判自己。.................................................................

Ama said...

Beautiful James.
You embraced yourself, the way of it all with the warming energies of love from your wifes breath and love.

I smile for you.

*gassho*

G said...

It's in accepting the crap along with the cookies that we really benefit from Dharma practice, James. This is the cure, for sure. You seem to have more than your fair share of crap with the illnesses that you suffer with. But, then again, let's consider all those lost rich and healthy people who are so enraptured with their egoistic existences that they never feel the need for Dharma. You are truly blessed - and so are we who have the privilege of reading your words!

啟均 said...

人生是故事的創造與遺忘。............................................................

青卉青卉 said...

幸福不是一切,人還有責任。............................................................

Arhat Ariya said...

PANCHEN LAMA LINEAGE BELONGS TO BUDDHA - NOT TO CHINA!

They call him James Ure said...

@Jayavara...Thanks. :)

@Mindyourmind...Yep, baptism by fire I guess. There's never an easy way around the fire. The only way is to take deep breaths and walk straight through it.

@The Breezer...I'm glad that you can relate and that my writing sometimes helps. Part of why I write is to be of benefit to others. Thanks for the kindness.

@Zeke...Thanks!! I appreciate your different angle to this.

@Ama...I appreciate your kindness and support.

@G...Yep, lost rich people are facing their own crisis. None of us gets out of this place alive so to speak.

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